Wednesday, December 27, 2017

angry girl journal 12.27.2017

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

angry girl journal 11.22.2017

i have observed that people don't really listen because they care about what you have to say. some people wait for you to finish because they would rather talk about themselves. some people, they listen to make a rebuttal because they think what they have to say is better. and some people, they don't even bother to let you finish. they just talk over you. not because what they have to say is better. they just think they're better.

Monday, November 13, 2017

angry girl journal 11.13.2017

sometimes i wish i can forget all the thoughtless, hurtful things people have said to me. i have let go, but for some weird reason, i still remember. it's one of those things which is both a gift and a curse.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

angry girl journal 10.24.2017

and now i have to fix myself and act like a functional human being.

Monday, October 23, 2017

angry girl journal 10.23.2017

i don't feel like living today. but i don't have anyone to rely on but me.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

not-so-angry girl journal 10.10.2017

i got a note yesterday from someone thanking me for something i did for them in the past. it's amazing how the little things you do can mean so much to others.

Thursday, October 05, 2017

Thursday, September 28, 2017

angry girl journal 09.28.2017

i think the baby crocodile was more scared than me.

one of those few vacations i took and somebody (not my manager) called me up because they couldn't find parking. a rare instance where i would pick the crocodile over those kinds of people.

i should go back to Palawan soon.

Friday, August 25, 2017

angry girl journal 08.25.2017

i managed not to make anyone cry today. 

but it's relatively early.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Wednesday, August 02, 2017

angry girl journal 08.02.2017

i look at pain as something that if i ignore long enough, will go away eventually.

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

wave goodbye, Chris.

heaven send hell away
no one sings like you anymore

good night, Chris Cornell.  you will be missed.

Sunday, February 19, 2017

not-so-angry girl journal 02.19.2017

sometimes the best conversations are the ones you don't have any pictures to show for.

i'm really glad i got to see you and be with you.  you are one of the most brilliant minds i have ever come to know, and it makes me happy that no matter how far you are from me and no matter how long we are apart, i am fortunate to call you as a friend.  i will always love you and cherish what we have. it doesn't even matter that we're not together that way.  we don't have to be together that way.  i love you.  my affection for you has evolved from disgust to infatuation to love.  before i didn't want to be near you because you were so arrogant.  then i wanted to learn from you because you were so smart. then i wanted so much to be with you and i was trying so hard to make you want me, to make you see me.  now i'm just happy i have you.  i don't need to be your love, because i know i have your friendship and for the first time in my life, i'm actually okay with being friendzoned.  you have a special place in my heart and it's comforting to know that i am in yours.

you are the only man i will allow to throw up in between my legs.  

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

angry girl journal 02.07.2017

in all my years of being alone, i find that pain doesn't stop me. it only slows me down.

Friday, January 13, 2017

angry girl journal 01.13.2017

this is pretty spot on.  no wonder whenever people try to gauge your sanity, for clinical or for interview purposes, they try to show you pictures.  it helps them determine if you're a psychopath.

i know i am good; and i'm not trying to be boastful, just honest.  certain capabilities and talents were passed on to my genes and i have been utilizing those talents as much as i can.  however, if you have spent your entire life being doubted and unappreciated by the people who should be encouraging you, it gets to you.  that no matter how great you are, you will never be good enough.  it's sad because for people who don't understand, it will all seem like you're just fishing for compliments when you're not.  you simply just have low self-esteem because it has been part of your DNA.  the great thing about it is that it always keep you pushing harder, working hard to be better, but it also kills you inside.  there's always that nagging feeling, that voice inside your head that you could've done better and that you're a disappointment to yourself.  i know because i have to overcome that thought everday. i have to tell myself everyday i can do better, but that i don't have to kill myself every time i fail because i am enough.

not-so-angry girl journal 01.13.2017

did you notice how beautiful the moon was tonight? i wanted to celebrate its beauty before i went to bed.  it's great reminder of how small we are, and no matter how many of us are here, looking at that same moon, we are all taken care of.

Thursday, January 12, 2017

not-so-angry girl journal 01.12.2017

Reinforce with good feelings, gratitude, and above all, LOVE!

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

in the end, we all become memes

memes are the in thing these days and we all have seen and probably even laughed at one.  we are in the digital age after all.

an internet meme has been defined as an idea, behavior, or style, that has been spread from person to person within a culture.  it is an image, video or piece of text, typically humorous in nature, that is copied and spread rapidly by internet users, often with slight variations.  basically, anything anyone does now can be turned into a meme, if one's not careful.

i discovered Dankland through a friend.  their tagline is simple:  where dreams become memes.  all you have to do is message them a photo and they will turn it into a meme.

and so a meme i have become:

some people simply have so much time on their hands.