Monday, May 30, 2016

angry girl journal 05.30.2016

i'm taking a moment to pray for the people who bodyshamed me:

may you never lose a family member;
may you never get abused for your kindness;
may you never be told that despite your best efforts, you weren't good enough;
may you never be dumped with problems by people who don't care about your worries;
may you never be stalked and not feel safe in your own home;
may your friends never abandon you in favor of a promotion;
may you never be approached by people only because they want to borrow money from you and then forgotten when you need them.
may you never feel so depressed and alone with no one to comfort you but food,
may you never get your heart broken.

because sometimes eating sweets is better than slitting your wrists or killing people.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

angry girl journal 05.29.2016

thank God, this work day is done. next project, please!

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it was twenty years ago when my mother passed away.  not a day goes by that i don't think about her and i've managed to keep myself preoccupied by either going out with friends or working on the day she joined our Creator.  i don't think i'll ever be okay from losing her in my life, especially when i think about all of the things we could still have done together.  all the things i have accomplished would've meant more had she been with me, but i just get stronger.  i know she would have wanted that.

Monday, May 23, 2016

aym situation report 05.23.2016

there are days when i have come to rely on you to cheer me up better than my closest friends do, and i don't even know you.  all i know is that you manage to make everyone around you smile.

i don't know anything about you.  i don't know what goes on in your life or in that head of yours.  but i do hope you know that even though we're not close, that you can count on me too;  i don't know how though as i'm a bad person.  but i'm here for you too.  

Thursday, May 19, 2016

aym situation report 05.19.2016

i still haven't made up my mind about you.  but i'm glad you're there for me. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

angry girl journal 05.18.2016

i have a weird sense of humor which i don't expect everyone to get.  i don't think i'm smarter than everyone else; we are all equally wounded and i try to find the lighter side of it, no matter how dark.

Saturday, May 07, 2016

angry girl journal 05.07.2016

yesterday, my phone service was out. i couldn't send and receive any messages. i couldn't make any calls and i couldn't get a data signal. i called it in and i was told that we had an "unscheduled system upgrade" because of the elections. it's probably back up now, i don't know. i haven't checked yet. i kinda enjoy being off the grid.

Thursday, May 05, 2016

angry girl journal 05.05.2016

you'll never find me
you'll never catch me
you'll never find me

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accident prone.