Thursday, May 08, 2014

angry girl journal 05.08.2014

why did i have to be so ambitious? why did i think so highly of myself that i had potential that needed to be realized? why did i let those stupid movies like Dead Poets Society and Mona Lisa Smile affect me and made me think i should go out and be different,  someone that i'm not. why was i so persistent in doing all sorts of things to try to improve myself?  i could've just been an agent: logging out after eight hours, no overtime hours, unless i wanted to earn extra money, not on call and nothing to worry about? why did i have to be so proactive and so eager to do more and help other people when i could just stay indifferent?