i hate long weekends.
yes, i will visit my parents' grave some time this weekend. just maybe not today.
anyway, i am disappointed that i have a weekend this long, like when i had to stay home for Holy Week. even when my Father was still alive, i preferred going to work. he was happy i get paid double for the holiday and i was happy because i had to interact with him less. that he died didn't change it. i still preferred to go to work on the PHL holidays and take off on the US ones. if i needed to get something done, i take the US holiday off and i get to do it. i don't get to accomplish anything if everybody else in bureaucratic Manila is on holiday. besides, i was insanely trying to be with someone who wasn't worth it at the time. it made me happy seeing him even though the feeling wasn't mutual.
now, all i just have is free time.
i don't really like to go out. not anymore, anyway. i only like going out when i'm with friends, as i am not particularly close with the family i have left. if i don't have to, i'll just stay home and sleep. that or watch tv and be brain dead. i do want to travel again, but only if i can be with friends. the last thing i want is to be stuck over the weekend with a bunch of people i don't particularly like. i won't enjoy it because it will be torture.
i could travel alone but i will always wonder what would happen to the house while i'm gone. it would've been a great opportunity to find myself. maybe i will before the year ends.
it would also be nice if i could travel with someone special. yes, i just got all mushy and wished that i could travel with someone i love.
But I could take you with me
Oh please let me take you with me.
And you can see those seasons too
But from a different view.
I want to get away with you.
I want to get away with you.
- Travel Song, Evelyn Burke
i just have really high standards. so i guess i will just sleep off this weekend again.
yes, i will visit my parents' grave some time this weekend. just maybe not today.
anyway, i am disappointed that i have a weekend this long, like when i had to stay home for Holy Week. even when my Father was still alive, i preferred going to work. he was happy i get paid double for the holiday and i was happy because i had to interact with him less. that he died didn't change it. i still preferred to go to work on the PHL holidays and take off on the US ones. if i needed to get something done, i take the US holiday off and i get to do it. i don't get to accomplish anything if everybody else in bureaucratic Manila is on holiday. besides, i was insanely trying to be with someone who wasn't worth it at the time. it made me happy seeing him even though the feeling wasn't mutual.
now, all i just have is free time.
i don't really like to go out. not anymore, anyway. i only like going out when i'm with friends, as i am not particularly close with the family i have left. if i don't have to, i'll just stay home and sleep. that or watch tv and be brain dead. i do want to travel again, but only if i can be with friends. the last thing i want is to be stuck over the weekend with a bunch of people i don't particularly like. i won't enjoy it because it will be torture.
i could travel alone but i will always wonder what would happen to the house while i'm gone. it would've been a great opportunity to find myself. maybe i will before the year ends.
it would also be nice if i could travel with someone special. yes, i just got all mushy and wished that i could travel with someone i love.
But I could take you with me
Oh please let me take you with me.
And you can see those seasons too
But from a different view.
I want to get away with you.
I want to get away with you.
- Travel Song, Evelyn Burke
i just have really high standards. so i guess i will just sleep off this weekend again.
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