Friday, August 16, 2013

there was a time when i was that kid

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i was in first grade when i was first introduced to the Puerto Rican boyband Menudo.  i was in an exclusive school for girls and lesbians and we all had a crush on either Ricky (who didn't know yet at the time that he was gay) or Robby.  hell, i didn't even know they were boys.  i got "discovered" by my homeroom teacher to sing one of their songs for a singing contest.

If You're Not Here (By My Side)
Menudo

Gotta catch that plane at 7:30
Why haven't you come to say goodbye
Time is running out and I'm still waiting
I'm so lost without you, I could die
Yesterday you said you loved me
Everything seemed to be fine
Today you're not here, I'm so lonely
It's the waiting that's driving me out of my mind

Don't know how I'll sing in that big city
How can I perform if you're not there
This will be the worst of all my journeys
The image of your face will follow me everywhere

I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much

If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it without you

If you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here

I need your tender kisses
The feel of your hands, your caress
Your perfume has me burning
My heart is yearning to touch you
I need you so much

If you're not here, by my side
Can't hold back the tears
I try to hide
Don't think I can take it
I know I won't make it
Make it without you

If you're not here, by my side
Only your love keeps me alive
No sense in dreaming
My life has no meaning
If you're not here


i didn't win.  it's not like they encouraged singing in the house growing up.  but my father encouraged winning, so that was probably the first and last time i got to sing for that school, other than for Holy Communion.  the only other time my father was kind of supportive of my singing was when i was already in law school, when i was with the band.  he would let me join singing groups in high school but it was so hard trying to get permission to leave the house to practice.  oh, and nobody really saw me as a singer in elementary or high school.  i didn't "bloom" until college - had to fill up my resume, of course.

so i lost the singing contest in first grade.  but i won the next year.  General Information contest.  my grades were awesome ever since.