i don't go to church.
i don't go to church like i don't believe in marriage. well, i believe in God, or the Higher Power that guides us all but i don't go to church anymore. it's embarrassing to say that i only go to church when i feel like it, it's just that i want to be able to talk to my Creator freely and not have to worry about other people.
now, just because i don't go to church it means i'm a bad person. i can go on here about people who go to church but do this and that but i'm not going there. i try to be good. i try to do what i think is right, what i was raised to believe was right. just because i don't go to church doesn't mean i don't pray, i do. i talk to my Creator a lot. i ask Him (or Her) for guidance, protection, strength. i thank Him (or Her) for the many blessings that i have right now. i am grateful for all the opportunities given to me. yes, i could be happier. but i could've had it worse. so i am grateful.
while i'm not particularly pious (M used to say that whenever I said "religious"), this is what gets me through BBB (buwis-buhay bus) rides and being home alone.
that, and i have a knife too.
i do believe in the Creator's power to look after all of us but i also believe that God helps those who helps themselves. hence, the knife.
which i don't use to slash my wrists anymore.
i don't go to church like i don't believe in marriage. well, i believe in God, or the Higher Power that guides us all but i don't go to church anymore. it's embarrassing to say that i only go to church when i feel like it, it's just that i want to be able to talk to my Creator freely and not have to worry about other people.
now, just because i don't go to church it means i'm a bad person. i can go on here about people who go to church but do this and that but i'm not going there. i try to be good. i try to do what i think is right, what i was raised to believe was right. just because i don't go to church doesn't mean i don't pray, i do. i talk to my Creator a lot. i ask Him (or Her) for guidance, protection, strength. i thank Him (or Her) for the many blessings that i have right now. i am grateful for all the opportunities given to me. yes, i could be happier. but i could've had it worse. so i am grateful.
while i'm not particularly pious (M used to say that whenever I said "religious"), this is what gets me through BBB (buwis-buhay bus) rides and being home alone.
that, and i have a knife too.
i do believe in the Creator's power to look after all of us but i also believe that God helps those who helps themselves. hence, the knife.
which i don't use to slash my wrists anymore.
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