Tuesday, January 01, 2013

angry girl journal 01.01.2013

angry so soon?

actually, i didn't know what to call this post.  i was just really moved by the episode of Family Guy.  usually that cartoon show offends me, or challenges me to think at least, if it wasn't trying to make me laugh.  but today i was touched.

Brian and Stewie find themselves locked in bank vault as they're trying to retrieve items from Brian's safe deposit box. Stewie discovers that Brian has a gun in the safe deposit box, which led him to ask why, to which Brian replies, after trying to divert the topic of conversation,  that  he kept in just in case he ever wants to commit suicide.

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Brian feels that his life has no meaning or purpose, to which Stewie replies:

"You give my life purpose, and maybe, maybe that's enough. Because that's just about the greatest gift one friend can give another."

i wish someone could have that conversation with me some time and i know that they mean it, so i would be convinced not to do it.  or maybe even the other way around, that someone felt they didn't need to end their life because i helped make it more meaningful.  yeah, maybe that's why i'm angry, because i feel that there is no meaning to all this, that nothing matters.