Friday, December 21, 2012

suicide according to Robert Frobisher

in his last letter to Rufus Sixsmith, Robert argued that killing one's self is not a weak act.  it made me cry somehow, considering it is a thought that has crossed my mind numerous times.

"A true suicide is a paced, disciplined certainty. People pontificate, "Suicide is selfishness." Career churchmen like Pater go a step further and call in a cowardly assault on the living. Oafs argue this specious line for varying reason: to evade fingers of blame, to impress one's audience with one's mental fiber, to vent anger, or just because one lacks the necessary suffering to sympathize. Cowardice is nothing to do with it - suicide takes considerable courage. Japanese have the right idea. No, what's selfish is to demand another to endure an intolerable existence, just to spare families, friends, and enemies a bit of soul-searching. The only selfishness lies in ruining strangers' days by forcing 'em to witness a grotesqueness.”* 

i can't promise that i won't try to kill myself again. but he has a point.

*taken from the second part of Letters from Zedelghem, Cloud Atlas, written by David Mitchell