if two years ago, i went to him so i can run away from you because you were drunk and i don't want to be a statistic, this year, i went to you so i can forget him.
sorry about that. i didn't know what came over me. i was just really upset.
it was nice to see you again. it was nice that this time, between you and me, you are the saner one. you knew why i was there. you knew it was about him that i went to you.
i don't want to lose you as a friend, as a brother. you are one of the few men i feel safe with. yes, despite recent events, i trust you with my life, not just because of an oath, but because you are truly trustworthy and i know that you will sincerely and seriously look out for me.
and now you won't talk to me. and it's sad.
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see, you have no idea how bad i have it for you. you have no idea about the people who get hurt because of your actions. i know you weren't there when i kissed him and "violated" him, but, you made me so upset i had no one else to turn to. i know it's not an excuse but you always never run out of excuses, so why shouldn't i be allowed to use lame excuses for my stupidity?
i hope you are happy. because i'm not.
now, i can't run to anyone for anything anymore.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
angry girl journal 05.19.2012
Posted by bels at Sunday, May 20, 2012
Labels: angry girl journal, FWB, what love life?
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