Monday, January 23, 2012

something confused Christians and non-believers should see


last night i saw the play, Next Fall. the story is about two men in a committed relationship, Luke, the devoutly religious one, and Adam, an atheist,and how they make their five-year relationship work despite their differences. when an accident occurs, Adam turns to Luke's family for support.

during my three-year relationship with M, we didn't agree on a lot of things. most of the times, the other just gives in to avoid arguments, but she and i didn't have any conflicts about religion. God was the center of our life. of course, our relationship wasn't by definition, normal or conventional but God being the center of it was what kept us together for the most part, despite my strict father, despite law school, despite public scrutiny and everything else. that and the fact that we really loved each other then.

i find it sad that i have friends who have internal conflicts because they feel they are disobeying God if they admit to being gay. i find it sad that despite how open our society is right now to homosexuality, there are still people who are ignorant and treat it as a disease.

this play doesn't attempt to solve all those. but what it does is open our eyes, when we choose to close them. this is it, this is real. just because it isn't conventional it doesn't mean that it is any less real than heterosexual love. true, it doesn't eliminate hate, but it teaches understanding and tolerance.

i really hate it when people want to see me because "they're bored". i'd rather sleep than be somebody else's pastime. i hate it when people use Christianity as an excuse to not admitting to be gay. i don't like to judge people but i don't like hypocrites either. i hate it when people don't call you because they're concerned about you, but because they're more concerned about themselves.

if i don't want to be found, i won't.

i value you as a friend, but all this pretending has to stop.