Monday, December 05, 2011

angry girl journal 12.03.2011

the last time we had this conversation was in august, when i went to your house and i did my best to lift your hopes up. you were so down that day and i wanted so much to take your pain away, to help you set your life straight.

and now it's happening again.

sometimes i fear i don't understand how you resent what they do for you but somehow i can make you sane. these are people you actually care about. what would i do differently to make you listen to me when they can't make you stay long enough to hear what they have to say?

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i love this song. they used to play it in NU107 and every once in a while, they would play it in JAM 88.3. it was also featured in So You Think You Can Dance 6, with Eleanor and Ryan dancing to the choreography of Travis Wall.

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead
Stars

God, that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'
In that instant it started to pour,
Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of the time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name...

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
Now you're outside me
You see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard
I'll send you the news
From a house down the road from real love...

Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...
Live through this, and you won't look back...

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

I'm not sorry there's nothing to save...



it talks about the most awkward situation of seeing your ex after a long time but somehow you haven't exactly moved on yet or even if you have, that feeling where you don't really want to stay because you're afraid for the other person because he/she may not have been as resilient as yourself. it also talks about how you did everything you could but at the end of the day, there was nothing more that could be done for that relationship but to end. great song.