Wednesday, May 27, 2009

gloria estefan knows what she's talking about 2

are you really going away?

sometimes i don't know what to believe anymore. you do have a tendency to lie to me. i mean, you could really be going away and never coming back and all i would have left with me are the memories of you and i talking and smoking together.

i'd still want to be your friend. i would still want to get in touch with you even when you're not here in manila anymore.

i'm okay with just friends.

i won't complain anymore.

i can't complain.

anymore.

if friendship is all you can give me, i'll take that over you not even looking at me when you see me down the hall. i'll take that over this invisible wall, this silence that comes between you and me whenever we meet. we started out as friends, didn't we? it's hard and it would be very difficult to get over considering i have wanted you this intensely, compared to the others. but i'd rather have that than nothing at all.

Can't Stay Away From You
Gloria Estefan

Time flies
When you're having fun
I heard somebody say
But if all I've been is fun
Then baby let me go
Don't wanna be in your way
And I don't wanna be your second choice
Don't wanna be just your friend
You keep telling me that you're not in love
You wanna throw it all away

But I can't stay away from you
I don't wanna let you go
And though it's killing me that's true
There's just some things I can't control

Your love is slipping through my hands
And though I've heard it all before
I know you're telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you

Hold on to every beat of hope, that's all I ever do
Hoping you might change your mind
And call me up to say how much you need me too
And though you're leaving me no other choice
Than to turn and walk away
Look over your shoulder, I'll be there
You can count on me to stay...

'Cause I can't stay away from you
I don't wanna let you go
And though it's killing me that's true
There's just some things I can't control
Your love is slipping through my hands
And though I've heard it all before

I know you're telling me the truth
I know it's just no use
But I can't stay away from you


i won't complain. i can't complain. anymore.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

i fell, crashed and got infected.

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i recently saw Zach Lucero and his project band over at Route 196. i heard them play over this radio station's jam sessions too and i must admit that i am totally hooked. this is not just because Zach always asks if i'm a policewoman already. i've always liked the way Zach is fluid with his words and had hoped that he would come up with an album of his own.

i enjoyed this album not just because it's easy listening, really good for driving. i hardly get to drive but this is music i'd bob my head up and down to. you couldn't really even tell it was by a Filipino until you checked the credits. he even has a fabulous line up of collaborations: Micaela Domingo, Kris Gorra-Dancel, Ene Lagunzad, Marie Jamora, Aimee Marcos and Lourd De Veyra, to name a few. it's a totally different side to Zach that we rarely see in Imago. the good thing about Zach is that whether he's full scale or unplugged, the music is a different experience altogether, and yet he is still engaging. like any other songwriter, Zach talks about his personal experiences and is amazingly prolific. whether he's talking about his days as a DJ (Bob), to talking about breakups (Last Day), to people's addiction to Facebook(SuperPoke), to talking about the prospect of a new love (Matina Town Square - my personal favorite), Zach definitely nails it.

i am officially an addict. of course i haven't really enhanced my album reviewing skills yet so i'm just limited to, "buy it, it's great!". but it is.

trust me. i'm a policewoman.

Friday, May 22, 2009

being somebody's EA is a thankless job

yesterday i attended a seminar especially for executive assistants like myself. i was with my friend and fellow EA, Bryanne. while i didn't get any sleep coming from Wednesday shift and a little ticked off because of some person, i was looking forward to that seminar because it was an opportunity to interact with people with the same occupation as myself.

it was very interesting. i mean, i already know most of the stuff that were discussed there, but somehow, it got reinforced. i was surprised to find out that there are some bosses that hail from The Devil Wears Prada regime. i know that being a secretary or assistant means doing stuff that may not have anything to do with work but Bryanne and i never really had that problem. i think that stems from that fact that are bosses are not Filipinos.

yes, yes, i said that. sometimes your fellow man can be more demanding and bossy than the XPAT. i know so because while Nathan is the one i directly report to, the ones who are not my boss are the ones who give me the most stress. more often than not, these are the Filipinos. my clients love me, at least, i think they do. i take care of them. my clients love me, except for the ones who are Filipino. i don't mean to discriminate against our countrymen. most of the people i interact with still have their feet firmly on the ground. they get more humble the higher they step up the corporate ladder. the others, well, infer.

but going back to that seminar yesterday: most of these women (oh yeah, why is this job limited or typecast for women only?) have been doing their job for about at least ten years and while they complain about it, they don't really leave. i mean, i personally have not thought of myself doing something else because i simply adore my boss and for as long as he is pleased with the work i put out, i am pleased as well. sure there are times when he can stress me out and sometimes you do never run out of things to do, because there are people who find it amusing to make my life miserable even when they know that i don't go home and get to sleep anymore.

i just have to learn to say, "NO".

anyway, the seminar was fun. i got to meet a lot of new people. looking forward to meeting more interesting people in the future. maybe next time, i'll send my EA to one of these =]

Monday, May 18, 2009

gloria estefan knows what she's talking about

i'm pretty sick and tired of going to work and much of it is because i don't want to see you. i mean, i want to see you but knowing how you treat me, i'd rather not. if i could avoid seeing you, feeling you completely, i would.

but interaction with you is inevitable. our occupations are intertwined and more often than not, people will try to get to you through me, which is pretty annoying.

i've gotten used to not talking to you, although when you do talk to me, it just feels like yesterday. which is weird.

i love my job. if i don't have to deal with you or her, i'd be a happy camper. never mind if people have a tendency of treating me like shit. they mean nothing to me, and i can ignore the fact that they treat me like shit. but you. i will never get you.

i am sick and tired of hearing about how i supposedly rejected you. you rejected me. you hurt me. i am just reacting to what you're giving me. damnit, i love you. i never felt anything before you. but now you're the source of all my pain and suffering. you don't even take me seriously.

i lost some of the songs in my PC and much as i'd like to transfer all of the songs i like in there, most of them are in tape format. just like this song. i can't even find where the tape is now. but i remember losing it because the song says how i feel for you.

in one of her concerts, Gloria Estefan said something about writing love songs the way Julio Iglesias wrote love songs. Julio was in the audience and then she sang this song acoustic.


Words Get in the Way
Miami Sound Machine

I realize you're seeing someone new
I don't believe she knows you like I do
Your temperamental moody side,
The one you always try to hide from me
But I know when you have some thing on your mind
You've been trying to tell me for the longest time
And before you break my heart in two,
There's something I've been trying to say to you

But the words get in the way
There's so much I want to say
But it's locked deep inside and if you look in my eyes,
We might fall in love again.
I won't even start to cry, and before we say goodbye
I tried to say "I love you"
But the words got in the way

Your heart has always been an open door
But baby I don't even know you any more
And despite the fact it's hurting me,
I know the time has come to set you free

But the words get in the way
There's so much I want to say
But it's locked deep inside and if you look in my eyes,
We might fall in love again
I won't even start to cry, and before we say goodbye
I tried to say "I love you", but the words got in the way

I'm trying to say "I love you"
But the words get in the way


i don't want to think about you anymore. it gets to be exhausting. i'll just explore my options because i can't wait for you all the time. it doesn't work that way. once you realize that you do love me, or once you're no longer too proud to admit that you like me too, it may be too late.