Tuesday, December 18, 2007

i can sing this. i can totally nail this.


I hear the ticking of the clock
Im lying here the room's pitch dark

I wonder where you are tonight

No answer on the telephone

And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited

And I was going to tell you tonight

But the secret is still my own

And my love for you is still unknown


Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone

How do I get you alone

How do I get you alone

How do I get you alone

How do I get you alone

Alone, alone

one of these days, one of these very ordinary days, i'm gonna sing this song, and you'll love me for it. (and you thought it was the intro to a Barry Manilow song, didn't you?)

last saturday in AfterShift Jam, Jackie/Shackie of Distant Shores started the opening rift of this song. this is after troma performed a two-hour set where we just played with the chorus. i jumped in to join Jackie for backup but she didn't hit the high note and i didn't hit the high note. i wanted to, but i'm not like that. it was their set already.

i think i've mentioned here before that The Ronnies let me jam this song with them and they were amused, to say the least, with my rendition. that, for me, is okay enough, aside from the fact that my own brothers, traumaligno, love me enough to try to jam the song even if it's not what they normally play. i don't really have to prove it to them, although the boys were expecting me to do it since, pardon my brutal honesty, Jackie didn't cut it.

but i'm not like that. i would've, in troma's set, but not in some other band's set, where i volunteered myself to do backup duties. i don't steal other people's thunders, nor would i appreciate it if somebody did it while i'm singing my song. i don't have to prove that i'm good, or better, if i am (although JP from Route 196 said i was), if i already know it. it's not proper. oh yeah, what was that other term?

if i hit that note, it would be rude. i am a bitch, and i can be abrasive, but i know how to respect other people.

next time na lang. there's always a next time. and i will nail it. again.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Grudge Night at Club Dredd, oh, sorry, i meant Grunge

aside from the fact that it was sooo difficult to get to Club Dredd since everybody was Christmas shopping after they got their bonuses, Grunge night went well, as we all hoped. all the bands who performed were really intense, although i do have this partiality for troma and The Roxymorrons. i also liked Ursa Minor's set. i am officially a fan of their drummer. i'm having dreams about her, hahahaha. truly, when the equipment is good, it will really bring out the best in a band musically. i hope to bring troma to other venues to continue that streak. and to think, they performed for about two hours at the Watering Hole hours earlier. they had to, in order to kill time since the other bands weren't there yet. consider it practice time. tired and all, but troma delivered.

everybody had a hard time getting to the venue since it was a payday saturday and almost all the bands were late, so the troma set was just limited to four songs only. but it was a good set. the boys had fun and everybody had fun watching them. if i say so myself.

as they say, grunge was an era of really good music. sure, people looked like they didn't take a bath and everybody was wearing plaid, but it was a great era for music. really.

i'd say more, but i'm too tired to continue.


i love the idea that boom and i are able to bond. it takes the load off and at the same time, it allows me to vent, knowing fully well, that he can understand me. it's great that we got passed the pimp-whore relationship into being friends. i like it that my social network is growing and that the band, not just boom, is slowly opening up to me. it's a great feeling. i have been harping about it in here that i'm not just their pimp, but a big fan of their work. but it gives me more joy now to actually search for gigs for them since they've become my brothers and their girlfriends/wives my extended family. sure, all families are dysfunctional and this one is not an exception. but i like our being dysfunctional. it's fun.

let the good times roll.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Hump Day Wednesday: it's far, far, far, far, far*

so Russ Davis of NU107 invited Traumaligno and Sutil to perform for his production at the Al's Bar. before the actual day itself i was telling him that it kinda felt more like my production than his but it turned out okay, i'd like to think. there was also a mix up as far as Glenn's production is concerned (he texted me last Saturday that it was a Tuesday then it turns out it's on the same day. i swear, if i didn't erase that text message, we'd know who was drunk when they were texting who) so Russ was saying i had to make it up to Glenn to be in his good graces again and then gave me sort of a wink-wink that wasn't a wink-wink but kinda looked like, yeah, sure, Russ, i know what you mean. i'm going to feign ignorance again. and i finally know the answer to my question. without the having to interrogate people. because people will always let you down. and people can be so predictable. GO FIGURE. and this time, I HONESTLY HOPE YOU DO GET IT. and then shut up.

it was pretty much an adventure getting to the place itself and i needed the break anyway. it's like going out of town, except you're still in town, you still stay up the same hours and you assail (or indulge) your ears for one night.

NotSoFast, this young emo-punk band we met at Club Dredd for Foo Night unfortunately couldn't make it (that's okay, kids, there's always next time - watch your lungs, ok?) so Sutil went up first. i think they played more than 5 songs but i guess that was alright since the other bands were either not there yet or had an incomplete line up. i was scared that Russ would walk up to me and say, "bels, make them stop!" but he didn't. Sutil was good, they performed good songs and they were energetic. they kicked off the night hot. (haven't had sleep yet so i apologize for the grammatical errors)

next up was Ursa Minor and as always, all eyes on their cute drummer. she is hot. i will get her name, i promise you. Ursa Minor performed Taciturn, an original and forgive me, but after that, i couldn't tell which one was original and which one was not. they did Stars, again and yeah, i got lost as to which one was original and which one was not. they did about 3 more songs and i kinda remember Nirvana a bit. we'll hear the same songs being played again this coming Saturday at Dredd so i know what to expect. but i love their drummer. it's like, all our male companions converged in one area and just stared at her. just like all the male population in the audience suddenly show up when it's Narda's turn to perform in a gig. because Katwo is hot.

Pinas was next, and then Treadstone. of course, by this time, i've already downed a few beers. so no review. then troma was last. but they were both good. the Pinas vocalist had this energy about him that was admirable and Treadstone had a song called Falling Calling too. Ace of Bagetsafonik said their album was out anyway so they get first dibs on the title. okay, so troma went last.

i think i've said more than enough times how much i adore these people and their music. i am thankful at the fact that the people who were left in the audience appreciated them (lights were too bright but i could hear "oohs" and "aahhs" and "whoas" so that meant in a way that they liked what they were hearing.) i loved every second of it. it makes all efforts exerted in the name of the band worth it.

and then we went home.


Boom and i had this very interesting conversation and despite the fact that we were both tired and slightly drunk and sleepy, it was, interesting. we sorta agreed that for all the criticism it's been getting, everybody's a bit emo, even if they don't want to admit it.

that conversation really struck me in the sense that, okay, i'm not the only one who thinks this way, i'm not the only one who feels this way. i'm not that abnormal. there are people out there who will understand you, who will level with you, who will have a conversation with you and you'll enjoy it because it won't take them 5 or 10 seconds later to get the point you're getting at. you don't see that a lot. well, i don't find enough people who are like that and it is heaven when i do. it is disappointing sometimes and i'm not trying to diss everybody. there are indeed, moments when you just want your brain to stop functioning and just let go. some people enjoy that feeling more than others and they never get to revert back to their original state i.e. thinking mammals, hence, stupid people were born.

you have to forgive me, i may be harsh when i say these things. attribute it to being alone and miserable (and by God, it is more frustrating when you're sane AND smart enough to realize that you are) but i have been disappointed by people so many times, if not by their sheer dumbness but by their lack of respect or indifference to society and people in general. it came to a point where you build up this shield because even if by nature, i do trust and have faith in people, that they will not let you down, that they will value friendship over money, that they do read and write and therefore can get how sometimes 1 and 1 make three, that they will also go our of their way to help you out when you are on a rut, that they will not disappoint, you end up doing so because so many people will take the easy way out than do the right thing.

yes, yes, for somebody who's sleepy and tired and well, i ain't wasted anymore, i can still not stop talking.

i don't know how to end this again. so i'll just stop.

* to the tune of Frente's Labour of Love

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Batanes: so, anybody watched MY movie yet?

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they say that there is this terribly striking resemblance between him and me.

what do YOU think?

i haven't seen the movie yet, not that i have anything against it. it's just that with this work i have and the band, i don't really get to do anything else. then there's the fact we don't have a maid so you wonder where i slip in the shut-eye there. but i heard it's good. i mean, there's supposed to be this love story but there's a language barrier and you feel, when watching the trailer, that they're actually reading the sub-titles to understand each other WHILE they're in the movie.

but you should see it, if not for his and her crappy tan (i'm talking about Ken Zhu and Izza Calzado, not me and Ken) but for the fact that they actually advertise the place. it's our most typhoon-stricken island, i think. the trailer is so good and long, i don't have to see the whole film.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

it's wringing in my ear but it's better than M.Y.M.P. or Cueshe

i apologize for the title if any one of you like the aforementioned bands (would you rather have Akon's Don't Matter as LSS? or that frigging "suicidal, suicidal"? - i swear, when i hear them, i want to stick a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger). i personally don't and i think i've mentioned more than once why i feel that way about them.

anyway, for some weird reason, probably because i saw an Olivia Newton-John night over at Route 196 or because my ex is gallivanting on my lung center with his new gal (it's not the fact that Russell has someone new but the fact that I DON'T), this song just started playing in my head. that's since 6.20am yesterday,Wednesday until, what time is it today? 5.23am Thursday. if a song is in my head for that long a time, i make sure i sing it out loud in the elevator alone or i blog about it.

here it is:

Hopelessly Devoted
Olivia Newton-John

Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you
You know I'm just a fool who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see
there's nothing left for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now, there's no where to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying,"fool, forget him"
My heart is saying "don't let go
Hold on to the end"
that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

i can just imagine Ene or Anabel singing this. i can sing this.

it will probably go away now. not that i don't like it. it just wrings in my ear, that's all. along with this pain in my chest.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

erasermaya day: if we had more time, we probably could've stuck to the theme

so World AIDS Day was supposed to be EraserMaya Day for AfterShiftJam#I4GOT. it was fun, except for the fact that i didn't hear too many Eraserheads or Rivermaya songs.

attribute it to lack of sleep, or lack of time to practice, or fatigue, but i didn't hear too many Eraserheads or Rivermaya songs. well, Sutil did perform some songs, as well as Distant Shores. i really loved that Jackie sang Lightyears. never really found out if Matilda ever did covers. we were too tired to wait for them. i really wanted to. i just couldn't wait any longer. too tired. too sleepy.

TaBass started out the show and while the 3 gentlemen have this way of reminding me of Porkchop without meaning to, they do. i mean, the guys are good, except that they do have this tendency to make you feel like they're not taking their music seriously. but it was nice to hear GranMa again. yes, as in the drink, Gran Matador. the guys were fun to watch, as always.

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troma played next and unfortunately, they didn't really get to rehearse any E'heads or Rivermaya songs. it would've been nice though. so they did their Foo covers. they also made Kathy sing Spiderwebs (which i did back up for - nainggit!) and then they did a couple more covers which did not follow the theme. which was good in a way since i haven't heard Splender's Yeah Whatever in a while. and they let Toti/Allan (what name does he go by these days? and what hair?) for their rendition of Di Bale Na Lang by Gary V (kasi nga EraserMaya ang theme!) which was amusing, to say the least. i watch Traumaligno for the originals.

after troma, sutil performed and started their set with the E'heads' Superproxy. it was good except i can't listen to the song without hearing the rap part at the end. i wished rj improvised. anyway, they did Rivermaya's Kung Ayaw Mo Wag Mo afterwards before they proceeded to play their originals and a few more covers while buying time for Distant Shores' vox jackie who was still on her way. all i can say is this: i cannot look at rj singing a RiverMaya or Bamboo cover. i just can't.
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jackie of Distant Shores finally arrives and they start their set with Lightyears. i love Lightyears. russ davis and i were chatting one night while we were both at work (he, at NU107, me in front of my PC at the office finishing a bunch of reports) and i was sorta down and the song Lightyears was on his playlist and he told me to listen to it. it made me feel a bit better. a bit. it's an E'heads song. it's being played by one of the hottest DJs in my planet. he wasn't playing it for me but if it's on his playlist and he tells you to listen to it to feel a lot better because the song is just sooo good, it kinda passes off as if it was being played for just you and you alone. gaaad, I NEED TO GET A FREAKING LIFE. God, give me a luvah! talk about pathetic!

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so we hung out a bit but we really couldn't wait for Matilda anymore. i wanted to, we wanted to. we were just too tired. it could've been fun though. i know charms, et al, don't do covers so it could've been something to see. could've been.

like i said, erasermaya day could've been better. if we had more time. or something.