Monday, October 31, 2005

SOCO case number something something

You should be very proud of yourself, you who delight in other people’s sufferings, particularly mine. This story should interest you.

Our shop got robbed (again!) today.

I’m very disappointed with the police. This is the second time this has happened to us. Unless you count 2003, when some guys wanted to hold us up and my then girlfriend M couldn’t care less if I died or not and that other time when they did hold us up and my father was there instead of me. I was very close to Tyrone at the time, I didn’t know who else to talk to. Every time I’d feel bad, I’d have this sudden urge to call or text him because my girlfriend was already falling in love with her dentist and was openly flirting with other people as well. Anyway, I digress.

It/they took valuable stuff as always. Not really a lot, but the valuable ones, like they had prior information of which ones to take. It just devastated my father so much.

I am very disappointed because when this first happened, it was Christmas. Now they hit us at the only time I get to visit my mother and few police officers are able to respond immediately because they’re all in the cemeteries making sure nobody brings prohibited drugs, alcohol, guns or pointed objects when people visit their dead.

I’m disappointed because the SOCO (Scene of Crime Operations, although CSI still sounds better) still don’t have the proper equipment like investigators should; that there were so many onlookers but no real witnesses who could testify that they saw something or someone wreck the place; that it was so hard for us to earn the money to acquire all the property that was taken away from us (think eight months taking calls for MCI); that even if they investigate, nothing will happen and whoever these people are, they’ll be scot free to ruin somebody else’s lives.

Sometimes, I feel bad because these police officers seem to be doing their jobs, but there are those police officers who don’t want to do their jobs, so even if they work their asses off, nothing still gets done. But then again, you can see that in any working environment. The only difference is that we taxpayers want to make sure we know where our taxes go. We want to make sure the good apples don’t give in to the bureaucracy. I would like to see my taxes be used to buy more high tech equipment, like the ones they use in CSI so that the police officers can do their jobs more accurately, more efficiently and yes, more expediently. I really wish that aside from the training they get, they’re also made to watch CSI episodes, all of them. They could really learn a lot. No kidding. You should see the equipment that they used. You’d wonder if they ever actually found anything, if they ever actually caught anyone with the stuff they used.

Oh well, si Lord na lang bahala sa inyo. What goes around comes around.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

my friend from the middle of nowhere

I first met her through the internet. She wrote me a letter in one of those friend networks. I was really flattered because she seemed genuinely interested in getting to know me and having someone show her around (she didn’t really make me feel obligated, but i wanted to), recommend music (Paramita, Orange and Lemons, Rivermaya, Cynthia Alexander) she could bring back to her country. Things like that. We didn’t really get to meet until months later, after my bar exams, when I had time to surf the internet, while looking for a job. She didn’t really take it against me that I was tardy on our first meeting, or that I had to go home early, because I was living in another planet. Now, I wasn’t really looking for a relationship, neither was she. We were just both crazy about ideas and talking about them over coffee and cigarettes. Those were a nice three days (or was it four? Can’t remember) that I had with her, never mind if I had to travel two hours just to be with her.

Right now I have no idea where she is, but I believe she is where duty calls her. I miss her though. We did promise to write when we weren’t too busy. I just hope she hasn’t forgotten about me though, because she was really great to talk to. We could talk about anything and not feel embarrassed or ashamed or scared of what the other person might think after we’ve said it. She was wonderful. And funny. Oh yeah, did I mention she was hot?

I miss you, El. Don’t be a stranger.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

kate moennig is still the hottest babe for me

"Kate, vous etes une super nana."

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she is sooo wonderful to look at. i wish we had the L Word shown here. i wish i could say that to her face, that she's such a wonderful woman.

look at that face. yeah, yeah, i have this thing for women who look like guys and guys who look like girls. look at that nose, those cheeks, those fingers, (i'm also trying to get a pair of pants like that in the r.p., you know, ones that fit me), that neckline, those dimples, those lips. she looks good on anything.

she looks good on me =)

she looks good period.

kasi nga libre mangarap.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

when she sang this, you were the first thing that popped into my head

this was first performed by Miss Deanna Johnston and later on by Sweet Suzie McNeil on Rockstar: INXS. i think a local band named Hourglass covered it as well. this song is for you. yes, i'm still hung up on Ralph even after all this frigging time that i haven't seen him. yes, a lot of people are still shaking, scratching their heads and saying, "why him, why Ralph?". i have no idea. if i had, this wouldn't have been a problem. anyway, sweetie, hope you're happy in PCS. both of you. =)

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I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize -
don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

Rockstar INXS: nothing wrong with living in the trees just as long as you're with me

it can cuss, yes, but it cannot spell.

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I’ve put this off for too long: MARTY CASEY IS SOOO HOT.

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Jason Dean Fortune, you’re great, honey. I congratulate you for being the new vocalist of INXS (just like I knew you would win). but if you’re hot, Marty is definitely hotter, and I’m glad he didn’t win. I don’t have anything against INXS, I love their band. I just think it would be nice if Marty got recognized for his talent because honestly, Marty and INXS are not good together. JD and INXS are a perfect match. I said it here before, JD is the one who best approximates the voice of the late Michael Hutchence and it’s right and ripe for the kind of music INXS plays.

anyway, back to Marty: ABC Channel 5 (that's local RP free TV) will be showing reruns of Rockstar: INXS and that would be a perfect opportunity for all of us to see from the beginning how it is to make the instant rockstar. i think it was Scott Garceau who said that it's American Idol, with tattoos and a lot of black nail polish. it would also introduce people to music they wouldn't normally listen to. also, for those who are not familiar with INXS, you'd be able to hear their songs as interpreted by the finalists. you'd be surprised to see JD spend time in the bottom 3 in the first few weeks of the show. and you'll fall in love with this song by Marty Casey, pretty catchy tune called "Trees", lyrics of which i got here. you'll also appreciate this really great song by Bonnie Raitt entitled "i can't make you love me" (my other love song for Ralph), lyrics to follow.

Trees by Marty Casey

I don't want to go through this life

Without you by my side
And I've got it all worked out
in my head
Here's how it's got to be

It'll be you and me
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answers

We, we're make believe
in a world we rule together

We can build our dreams
with a knot tied tight
to last forever

It'll be you and me
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answers

It'll be you and I
up in the sky
it's a combination for disaster

We've got one shot -
so where do we go from here ?

It'll be you and me
up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answers

It'll be you and I
up in the sky
it's a combination for disaster

And I know
there's more for us in this life

Friday, October 07, 2005

i resign from things i don't like

current mood: pissed off
currently listening to: thanks to the moon's gravitational pull by sandwich

i don't understand how i could be a member of a group that i do not support or believe in. i didn't even sign up for it. somebody must've switched it or made a mistake. i would try anything once, except sex, yes. i may still have inhibitions, you can call me a prude if you want (but i don't think everybody will buy that statement). but there are things, i think, that you keep sacred, that is, you only do them with the people you respect and care about. hindi na nga love eh, basta nirerespeto mo 'yung tao na kasama mo, at nirerespeto ka niya, okay na.

I AM A BISEXUAL, NOT A PERVERT.

I HOPE WE GOT THAT STRAIGHTENED OUT.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

i always kinda wanted my nickname to be "sam" or "bender"






Take the Which Brat Pack Character Am I? Quiz

i kinda look like Judd Nelson, don't i? and the boy of my dreams, before he became supervisor, stayed in the corner. oh well.